Sunday, October 10, 2010

*Untamable Cowgirl*





This is a story about a  woman, who use to be a young girl... who has always been a cowgirl at heart.


This is my story...


Let me start with a wild and crazy, yet very sincere hello to all the women out there who love to be under the clear sunny blue sky, or ride underneath the stars at 2:00 in the morning... That say it's ok to get a little dirt and grease on your hands with your favorite pair of holey jeans on... To my fellow cowgirls!




I'm from the west, as you imagine... I've traveled all my life, looking for that oasis that you can call Home...  Not the kind where you say I'll be here for the next 3 or 6 years, but the kind where you say... Hmmmm.... Well I wouldn't mind staying a bit longer, not quite, yet ready to leave... It feels like The Father in Heaven put us in an oasis... A little Heaven on earth. This is Home... What makes a Home sweet tho? May I ask? Family! I believe the Father knew what He was doing when He created that special thing... Complex... Crazy... Intense... But so alive... Sweet... Amazing... Wonderful... Something that you can't buy in a store, but something that has to be earned... That the Father looks down and says, He wants to give us a precious gift... Family! I praise my Elohim for that everyday... I am humbled by such a treasure.
I am young, but I have seen how the sea of life can be calm at one moment, then in the blink of an eye. It can turn into a reckless, vicious storm. Hell bent on knocking you down to your knees... Not realizing, that's where you find truth, and your strength. Right there down on your bruised knees, where you finally find yourself. So much power is there, an overwhelming, overpowering peace. Right there with the Father in Heaven.......


Its funny, how this world thinks that if your found on your knees, that your at your lowest point, completely lost... with no way of getting out of that dark pit, that hell hole that you've somehow found yourself in. They couldn't be farther from the truth, that's where you TRULY find yourself... Right there, with your battered heart and your hurtin knees... Pleading, crying and begging... laying it all at Elohim's feet. Saying please pick me up and carry me for a second, just for a little while. I just need a little bit, a small speckle of your strength... Help me get back on my feet again... To be unshakable in You Elohim. My Strength, my Deliverer, my Elohim.




I have come to realize that in this world, you have to stay true to Elohim, your
Family and yourself... or you'll just get lost, no matter what you do. 
You have to know what matters most to you, who you are, what you'll fight for, what you'll go to Hell and back for... Then when you find it, you hang on to it... You out-ride those damn 8 seconds, you hang on for dear life... and once you hear that bell ring. Scream and shout girl... Praise the One Elohim above... You made it!




 I'm like every one of you.......



Trying to find my way... 


I have dreams and aspirations... But right now at this moment. I am so thankful for what I do have... I don't have to live out my dreams alone. I Have a wonderful Father in Heaven Elohim, and a Family who loves me...
I am already blessed so much!


Now let me, let you into my world for a moment... I live in a metaphorical... crazy... yet very peaceful whirlwind. I love it! I wouldn't have it any other way. 


My Dad and I are so much alike its sometimes scary. My Mom says that I am the most logical female you will ever come across... My Dad thinks its funny when she says that, until I use my logic on him. Fair play tho, I get my logic from him... My Mom, is the perfect woman... sweet, kind, caring, gentle and oh... so loving. I admire her strength the most tho... She's been places in this life, that I can't think or imagine any other woman being. She's faced the bull and told it to bite the dust, even when she knew that another one would take its place. She's my kind of woman!  Me, you'll find out soon enough... I don't like change... So don't even think about changing me. My brother is my best friend. You get on his bad side, your on mine. Likewise in reverse with me and him... Don't get on my bad side.
The rest of the Fam... I love them all!




People say that I'm a little bit wild and whole lot of crazy... My grandmothers old tune is you should a be Lady... What is a Lady tho? Sipping tea and marrying a guy who has hands soft as a baby's.... Paper pusher... City slicker... Doesn't know the first thing about really living. Hell No! I am a very outgoing and honest person, I don't hide behind any facades. This is me! If you don't like it, hit the road like that old song goes. I won't lie to you, I won't talk behind your back. I got something to say, I'll say it to your face. Now that's a Lady! You don't have to drink tea and marry a Richard to be one. No, Always know the truth and conduct yourself with respect and know who you are... Whether it be, someone like me who loves F350's, Winchesters, horses, country music and everything else that comes with it... Or someone who loves holding babies, making cookies, wearing dresses with flowers in her hair... That's not only a Lady, that's a true woman who knows who she is. Forget the rules of a tea sipping Lady... Some rules were just meant to be broken!


   I'm just like my Dad, a little bit on the wild side... I take risks, so people call me crazy... I don't take that as an insult tho... Quite the opposite, it just so happens to mean that I'm Free. Everybody wants to do something out of character, they're just afraid to take that leap. Me, I'm more afraid of missing out on that breathtaking moment, than not reaching for it... There are so many wonderful things that we don't even know that we miss out on... Because of fear. 


Elohim says follow Him and He will give you the desires of your heart and guide your feet... Wow! That's awesome to me... I love my Father in Heaven........ He doesn't want to hold me be back like some would... No, The Creator of everything wants to help me get there... When has there ever been so much Freedom in anything else... He's been there before the beginning of time... We've just been to blind and stubborn to see it... Now we're free!




To all the Cowgirls that are reading this... Trust the Father above... Remember who you are... Elohim meant for us to be free, like the summer wind on a mustangs back... Whenever you come to face the thing that you fear most... Give it all to Him and let Him guide you... You'll be breathtakingly free... 


                                                             Until next time,
                                                                      Taz